Decisions, Decisions

I am quite possibly the most indecisive person in the world. I hate when people make me pick which movie to watch, or where to go out to eat (coughAJcough). When I'm buying something at the store, such as hair curlers, I spend so much time deciding which brand to buy as if it's the biggest decision I will ever make. However, other times, I make extremely impulse decisions. I've probably mentioned before, I used to be quite the sucker for those kiosks in the mall (though I've gotten better at just saying no and walking away before they can say anything else).

Well, one of the areas of the most indecision in my life has been with my major. I've probably switched it about 6 times, each time just swearing on my life that it's the major for me. However, after I get somewhat into the major, I decide that it's really not, and then I plunge into another one. For the most part, I've been pretty set on journalism for awhile. But the past few months, I've just really not been excited about it. I just turned in my application for the program last week, and I'll be hearing in 4 to 6 weeks. Sometimes I get excited about it...other times, not so much.

When I was talking to my mom the other day, after telling her about all the many millions of things I want to do, started laughing and said, "You either don't want to do anything or you want to do everything." I'd say that's pretty accurate. Sometimes I really wish I had kept going with the Marriage and Family Therapy route. Other days I want to be a teacher. A lot of the time I really want to work for the Church Magazines...even though I have no intentions of living in Utah forever. Right now I'm taking an intro to the English language class for my Editing minor. So far, it's probably my favorite class I've ever taken so far. Each class I come out just totally fascinated by the material taught that day. Who knew that the English language could be so exciting? We talk a lot about speech disorders and I think it's so interesting. At the clinic I work at, part of it deals with communication disorders. I've always thought it was really interesting, and after learning the stuff I have been in my English class, it makes me want to either major or minor in communication disorders. Because the classes seem super interesting. Pretty much, I have no idea what I want to do, and even when I do have an idea, I change it. I guess in some ways it's good, because I am learning about a lot of different areas...but it's hard, because obviously, I should probably graduate by Summer of 2012, and I'd like to have some kind of major. Who knows. Sometimes I think about how much I wish I could go back to my freshman year, and I really know about all the different majors available here at BYU. There's this extremely interesting one I've looked at off and on, Recreational Management and Youth Leadership with an emphasis in either Leisure Services Management or Therapeutic Recreation. Haha. One of these days I'll graduate...and hopefully it will be in something I love :)